Ok, so it definitely wasn’t love. It was barely a crush. But I remember it/him/them well!
Yes….I was a bit boy crazy in my teen years. Not that anything ever happened. I was…less than popular. I had friends for sure – including some guy friends – but when it came to dating? That was non-existent in high school.
I do remember though, every year in high school, as Valentines Day approached, they had this THING. It was like Scantron for matchmaking. I think it was actually called Matchmaker.
Anyway, for like $2, you could do this survey and then it would ‘match’ you with other students who had also opted to participate. (pause as I sigh and laugh at my younger self)
When I was in grade 12, I had a locker next to a guy named Tavis. And on that particular Valentines Day, there was a school-wide game (again, whoever wanted to participate) and you had to try and get as many ‘hearts’ as you could. I think you had to give up your heart if you said the other person’s name. Well, Tavis said my name, so I took his heart.
And I’m pretty sure I still have it somewhere tucked away in a yearbook. It was blue.
I share this story because the year after he graduated, he was killed in an accident. (He was doing what he loved – biking across the country.) I’ve never forgotten what he wrote in my yearbook.
I know he didn’t come up with this (it’s a fairly common quote, but still) – he wrote:
My past is my memories.
My future is my imagination,
and my present, well, I don’t what that is.
Every so often, I think of him and other classmates that I know who have passed away – some of them parents of their own little ones – and it hits hard. I often still feel like a kid myself. It’s strange to think that they’re not here anymore. And it reminds me of how brief life on earth really is. And the importance of making the most of it. And telling the ones you love how you feel.
So, on this Valentines Day, I’m sending out love to a multitude of people who have shaped me into the person that I am today. Still lots to learn and improve on, but feeling love and appreciation today.